Today is my 1st day at work.... wow... xiong leh.... although onli 8 hours but i really feel very tired lo.... dun know whether isit because i nv use my engine for a long time liao.... my whole leg feel numb... my body feel shag.... i hope tml will nv come.... :''(
But today at least got abit good news la... finally got my pes status... nabei... i'm not given back to the original pes A but downgraded to Pes B... The fact is i'm alright what.... y they have to downgrade me? It is their mistake and i think they downgraded me just for the sake of keeping safe lo.... (Few cases of SAF personnel died during training recently)
Hmmm..... will pes B decrease my chances of signing on??? i think it will definately affect my chances of going to elite vocations.... : ( i think SAF is really playing 心理战 with me lo.... Me started from a young man very enthu and 100% wanna serve my country.... 180 degree changed to a low morale shag old man who do not have any faith in himself.. all his dreams shagged... confidence broken... stepping into the unknown.... Dun know where he will go for his two years of ns.... When his friends have all left him to serve the army... he might be serving in the civil defense???? i mean who can be as suay as me rite?... There are 6 kinds of pes status totally.. From Pes A to Pes F, and i tio 3 of them before.. From Pes A.. then Pes D... to now Pes B.. if i nv kanna army and hence not even given a chance of realising my dreams for my two years of ns... think i can go find a famous building and jump down better!!! how abt the esplanage??? :''( AGRH!!!!! i'm going nuts!!!! This is mentally torture!!! i'm not even enlisted yet!!!!!!!
So for those ns guys everyday thinking of awoling... spare a thought for ppl like me ok!! i want to going in also cannot ok!!
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